Where to start...
Let's see, Jeremy and I broke up the day before my mom passed away.
Yeah, I know...
He has been there for me a lot but only as a friend. We've talked every day but it's gotten less and less. We lasted 15 months. We weren't going anywhere. I'd swear to you that we were even in reverse. It sucks, because I did love him, but we just wanted different things. It was never going to work out.
Been single over a month now.
It's been a fucking blast.
I joined Plenty of Fish, the online dating site.
That was a total bomb. I had a date then freaked out and decided I wasn't ready so I deleted my account because let's be serious, those boys on there want to move sooo fast. I am still talking to one of them I found on there but I don't know how much longer he will continue the conversation without meeting me.
There's M. The one with the big house and 2 boats and lots of money. I've known him for a few years. Summer of 2011 was spent with him while I was dating Jarrod. He lives 2 miles down the road from me, we've hung out a few times but I doubt it's going anywhere. & I just seen on Facebook that he lost his phone so yeah, I'm probably fucked. Also, I doubt he'd ever take me seriously because him and Jarrod still hang out. However, I have intentions of being on his boat this summer. Just gotta work my way back in. He's always a good time when we hang out. & I know I can be myself around him.
There's C. The fucking batshitcrazy one that I always run back to. Met him after Jarrod. There is a magnetic force I feel towards him that I cannot help. No matter how hard I try. We are fire and gasoline. I won't think about him for months then BOOM I'm obsessed again. But when I say he's crazy, I mean it. He even told me he loved me. We've only hung out a handful of times. That's too much buddy, slow down. The best part is he's been through 2 girls in the past week on Facebook. I bet he lovesss them too! ha!
There's T. The first unavailable one. He has a girlfriend. He's a blast to talk to and very nice eye candy. He seems to only want to really talk to me when him and said girlfriend are on the outs. We've tried a couple of times to get together but it never works. Ultimately, I think he has a conscience. However, I did get chocolate for Valentine's Day.
Then there's F. The other unavailable one. He's married with 2 kids. We met through mutual friends when he was separated from his wife. Obviously, they're back together again. Shocker! He took me out a few weeks ago and we had a really good time as friends. Which is really all I need right now, friends. My dilemma is he does all sorts of perfect things that I would want a boyfriend to do. FML.
I'm pretty proud of myself for staying single.
This is new for me.
I would like to date more but I don't really have many options to meet guys. AND when you meet them and date them they like to get so serious so fast. No thank you!
